april 1...

A quick review of what I learned one year completely sober...

... what other people think of me really is none of my damn business.

... I only require my own approval.

... Rumi was right... the cure for the pain is in the pain.

... a happy life is all about unconditional love and forgiveness.

... the answers are found in meditation, not in the bottle of wine.

... being an awesome mama and wife is way easier with a clear head.

... I am not alone in this life.  God and my angels have my back... 100%.


Today was all about uncovering... digging deep and sifting through lies and stories to find truth. Owning my part... humbly.   Creating lists of forgiveness.  Arguing with the brat inside me that protests when I follow my inner knowing and serve my highest good.  That is the reality.  My acts of self compassion and love take daily effort.  I am constantly releasing the shame and feelings of unworthiness.

This Tuesday night involves reading and taking notes, Peace oil on my wrists, legs up the wall and listening to this Spotify playlist.  

rest and recalibration...

Just got home from our doTERRA annual convention... where everything was GO GO GO!  I didn't eat as well as I planned, but I did stay hydrated.  I slept so soundly and deeply, continued with my meditation practice and made sure I stretched morning and night... so I am feeling better than expected.  

The rejuvenation that comes with convention and being surrounded by my people is a great pay off for the lack of meal planning.  As long as it doesn't happen often, I am ok with it.

The past two days I've been in rest and recalibration mode.  Soup and tea, laying in the grass with the sunshine on my skin.  Cuddling my family tight.  I am also taking stock of what is working and what isn't.  Holding tight to my boundaries, assessing my options, making clearer plans.

Did you know that the universe loves clarity?  

It does.  The clearer you are about what you want, the more likely it is to occur.  That has been my experience. So get clear, really clear on what you want.  Let go of thinking about what you don't want... that is a waste of energy.  Plus, why would you want to put what you don't desire out into the world? 

Today looked like this:

  • tea and soup
  • Patchouli, Tangerine and Douglas Fir in the diffuser
  • sunshine and barefeet
  • introducing some of my favorite customers to our new products
  • website work
  • bath and new face mask
  • hip opening yin yoga 
  • meditation to open heart chakra
  • water with lemon oil and trace minerals


Today is usually a harder day... though remembering tragedy often reminds me to live more intentionally from love.  

Self care looked like this today...

  • slowing down and noticing... my daughter's expressions, the clarity in the sky, the deep reverence in a simple ritual of homemade soup for lunch
  • meditation
  • releasing shame & guilt with energy work and an oil protocol
  • yoga with my family this morning
  • consuming a lot of water with lemon oil and trace minerals
  • honey and vitamin c face mask tonight
  • turning off phone at 8pm

for the fun of it...

Today was hot with super intense sun.  Bees in the borage as I weeded and drenched the red maple with chelated iron.  I realized it is really hard for me to relax without an expectation of checking something off my to do list... even if it is doing things that I love to do.  

What happened to fun for the sake of fun?  
... or at least, relaxing for the sake of sanity?

  • One hour of deep poses targeting gall bladder meridian
  • Made a huge pot of super awesome chicken broth... the kind that fully gels in the fridge.
  • Cypress oil on my legs
  • Time puttering in the garden
  • Legs up the wall a few times
  • Meditation in silence

something had to give...


Two wonderful reminders of natural consequences.

Last Wednesday, in between my tears of frustration I sat in my new nutritionist's office as she told me that mine are exhausted... and if they were feeling what I was feeling, then no shit.  

I've been gaining weight, my hormones were out of whack (hello random chin hair), short tempered, my muscles achy, my skin was dull and wrinkly, and I've been mentally and physically exhausted.  

I feel/felt broken.

I feel/felt old.

She looked at me with deep compassion and said:  "Jen, you HAVE to change your lifestyle.  If you don't, I can't help your body heal... no matter what you eat. "  

Damn it.

Can't you just tell me to eat vegan or paleo and I'll be better? I don't have time...
...  I felt my low back and shoulder ache... like "aching in the bones" ache and my brain started to swirl...

Nope.  I am in.  Fully in.

It is ironic I got to this point.  I know what to do and why to do it.  I mentor a large team, and am known to preach self care. It's kinda my thing.  I know that success thrives when you thrive and self care is the magic that makes it stick.   I LOVE talking about it and actually I love implementing self care (who wouldn't?), but the past few months (year) I haven't acted in a way to fully support my body because of that lame old excuse... "Who has the time!?"  And probably more accurately the head talk of... "Who are you?  You're not worth it."

Tonight... cool night, crickets chirping, my girls laughing downstairs.

  • hot bath with epsom salt, Himalayan sea salt, baking soda and patchouli.
  • turmeric, Uncle James' honey, lemon oil face mask... (my bathtub is now yellow)
  • gentle reclined twists and deep forward folds before I sat in meditation using the Insight Timer app
  • reading Glennon Doyle Melton's Carry On, Warrior (I thought I was ordering her new book, Love Warrior.. but God knew I needed to read this one. )
  • sipping on water purified with Miyabi charcoal sticks with a few drops of Trace Minerals.